i am in love.

omg my fucking got i love move friends sooo much you dont even know! mary i wish i didnt spend as much time at the bar like i did i wanted to dance w/you and my little fugative(anna) all nigh long. and tatiana i love that she was dancing w/raymond! and o who else well no one realy but i ho0pe no one is mad at me...that would suck. i made alot of new friends mainely because i was drunk butyea...i LOVE you all...even you!

i want to leave this state for a long time. i have no clue of who i am. nothing is leading me and i dont know the way to go. i feel like everything in this town is holding me back because all i want to do now is just sit at home and get sauced.


i want to go to North Carolina.

its monday. my favorite day!!!CHICK-FIL-A ALL YOU CAN EAT NUGGETS BOWLING DANCING DRINKING DRUGS FRIENDS



love life---->shitty...extremely shitty.

friends------> i love them. they make my day just peachy. i miss mary but my old friend tatiana is in town and this makes me happy to hang out w/ old friend you haven't seen in a long time. i notice how much i have changed. i love anna. shes what i've need in a long time. i was getting tired of being the only one who wants to go out everynight. madison is on my last nerve but i think this is because of working with her. i just have to adjust but i love her all the more.OOOO and brian how i love him. im smoking more so i love him more hahaha. welp. my life. mark is on my shitlist as of last night...

school/life in long run->?????? i have to register for classes in july. i know im not. so i guess i dont know. oooo my life.

i hate this bi-polar weather. but i do love the cold air.

if only i had a boyfriend to bring me food and cuddle w/ me while we watch TV. if only.


IM SO HUNGRY!

its kinda nice having family from another country because they just dont care about set holidays. ie-christmas,thanksgiving,mothers day,ect. you just respect your mother. thats all. but i still got her a present.

but! i am thoroughly disappointed in st. augustine right now. no one will pick up their phone and go to the beach w/ me. there loss ill just get drunk in my front yard and get tan...alone.

mary compton. if there was any one that i loved it would be you. you have no idea how much you mean to me. and i love you for the way you make me feel about myself. dont you worry about any kind of drama because you are above all of the bullshit because you are the only REAL person in my life and the only one deserving of my love...along w/ micheal. he loves you. and i do to. so does brian and anna. they are eating in my garage. hint hint. we have orange paint all over our hands. even through all the shit and tears. and even though my eyes are swollen and hurt like a motha your the only thing that can make me smile. i wish i had my camera... ok well then. i love you.

im such a coward. i skipped out on my pre-cal exam. i dont need the credit and i can still graduate even though its an F but o well. but im scared it might bring it down to were i lose my bright future scholarship. but i might loose it anyway because unless i score a 1100 on my SAT. then i cant get it. well if anything i will work my way through college and hope for the best. maybe a student loan. well. i still feel like a coward because mrs. whiles scares the shit out of me. now lets see if i loose my job today!!!

i am officially PMSing. i hate this soo much. its crazy the way hormones fuck with you. i just want to eat a newborn in front of its mother. well i will just eat a pack of oreos and then throw it up later. that will make me feel good...NOT. but ill do it anyway. i hate my self right now. boys be lucky for your dick.

today was wonderful. i truely enjoyed every ones company. i could care less if chamber only got a excellent rating. thats still awesome. i cant wait to see mary pictures.

im jealous of mary and Micheal's love. im in a very envious mood this week.
plus side::i got some new clothes today. they are hot!

im sick with jealousy.

i did half of my homework and didnt wash my hair. but this is a good start. to bad its so late in the week.i work tomorrow FINLAY and i will have plenty of money to get sauced.

i had alot of fun at before,during,and after prom! besides all of the enviable drama everything went very smoothly and they didnt even fucking breathalyze us. those pigs. well yep. prom was good and i think i just might graduate!YAY!

Okay, so talk about a great night. Brian, Felicia and Jordan....how much better could it have been?...Okay so we go out to morgans and get shitty....of course...and we are on our way back. We get going down 208 and we're just jammin going about 100...well Jordan(the asshole), decides he wants to stick his head out of the window....well not only that but he decides to jump out of the window...WHILE WE AE GOING 90 MPH!....so im flipping the fuck out thining he is on the side of the road dead...felicia is still going 90 down the road constantly checking her rear view mirror for him rolling behind us.....so after about 30 seconds...we finally slow down to a stop....wheres jordan?....hes fucking dead!....well no not really but he is on the fucking roof of the car......while we were freaking the fuck out this dumb bitch was surfing on the roof of the car....i wanted to kill him......so yeah...that was my biggest memory of last night....FUCK ME!

jim and kristy suck balls and i spelt her name wrong and dont give a fuck.

my family is hell. i have no fucking clue what i want to do after high school. im failing english and she ask me what kind of GPA im holding a 4.what?! i dont even know if im ganna graduate. but damn. my cousin vishi didnt even have to pay to go to college. smart bitch.and they keep comparing me to her. fuck that shit. i hope i get realy drunk and high so i truely enjoy the turkey. haha i love that part of my family. jim comes back tonight.im excited.